Inspired by IF ONLY

Woke up with a thought which dint allow me to sleep again.Wondered all night what if i know i just have few days in hand.Have i done everything i wanted to do in life?Have i lived every moment i have dreamt of?The answer was NO in bold letters.The word NO echoed in my head for the whole day...week...month.Decision had to be made.I decided to live each day like it was my last.I decided to live like there is no tomorrow.

Made a check list of all the things i want to do.The list was never ending.Thought was the list of what i have done smaller than what i want to do?To my surprise the answer was Yes.Still decided to make a list of what all i want to do.

On a personal note I want to hold my guy's hand and never leave it.I want to learn the art of attachment and detachment.I want to experience the feeling of being IN love.I want to experience the feeling of BEING loved.I want my grandfather back.I want to know how to get out of the denial mode.

On an adventuruos note I want to paint my walls and hands and spoil my clothes with the 5 yr olds.I want to sit in the garden and enjoy wine eventhough im not a fan of wine.I wan to play football in the rain.I want to own a house in Las Vegas and party for 8 days straight.I want to sing at a rock concert and play the electric guitar.I want to own a house in Beverley Hills.I want to bury myself in the sand for a day.I want to live underwater like a mermaid.I want to spend every month in a new city.I want to have so much power that my words are commands.I want to live like Paris Hilton for a day where i can patent the words i say "Thats Hot".I want to click snaps of every moment i live.I want to gobble down cheese and pasteries and still feel light.I want to walk the ramp with Jude Law.I want to do scuba diving and swim with the fishes.I want to own a jet ski and ride it.I want to sleep on the bed of gummy bears and lollipops.I want to have a personal masseurs.i want to know the secret formula of Coca Cola.I want to have a chocolate massage by George Clooney .I want to know who invented the colour Pink.

The day is not far when il have ticks on all the things i want to do in life.

Question I dont have an answer to.......

Miss P feels that we now seek our warmth in those with whom we share not ancestors but interests.There are times she does not want be there but she has to.She hears people telling her "feel with us rather than being with us".She feels sometimes she has to do somethings which she does not like but she has to do it to make her loved one's feel loved.Have relatives become the new strangers?

Miss P went to this boutique and the fellow who was showing her around was a winner of genetic lottery.She felt like shop lifting so atleast that guy would feel her up.Are such thoughts and feelings acceptable?

Everyone likes breaks.Lunch breaks , power nap breaks , tea breaks , summer breaks and winter breaks.Then Miss P wonders why dont people like BREAK ups?

When Miss P steps outside her house , starts the car , catches a rickshwaw or meets someone on the raod people ask her the same question which is "Where are you going?".But Miss P does not know Why is everyone in search of a Destination?Why we just be spontaneous and go where the road takes us?Why does one plan everything in life?

Every ocassion nowadays is celebrated by giving a gift.How does one define gift?A 2 bucks chocolate given by a begar to his child after starving for one whole day or A Bentley given by a billionaire to his spoilt son because he got 45% in his exam.So is gift defined by how much money one is spending on it or the feeling or emotion with which the gift is given?Miss P asks Would you call a stapler packed in brown bag with dog poooop a gift?

I LOVE YOU are the most powerful words one person can tell the other.Then why doesnt everyone use the power?Isnt power something that everyone wants and craves for?Why does one say I Love You?Is it because the person loves the other person more than Himself/Herself?Then Miss P wonders why does I comes before You ? (I love YOU)

When you say I hate him/her , you still have feelings for the person because you think of the person and then you hate them but when you say your indifferent towards the person it means you dont acknowledge them or their presense.Miss P askes "Do you hate your enemy or are you indifferent towards him/her?Which is a sharper weapon?

Miss P is totally amazed by some of the one liners she heard recently
1)Girls with asses like mine dont talk to guys with faces like yours
2)If your Ego was listed on the menu card the price of your Ego would be unimaginable
3)I'l leave footnotes on ur epic ass
4)Why dont you crawl from from the hole you came from
Miss P wonders How does one make a one liner?Can someone find its birthplace?Are one liners an outcome of anger , irritation or retaliation?One liners usually hurt people but why do people like Miss P enjoy one liners so much?

Miss P will be glad to get some answers....

You make me feel Perfect

Everyone comes across this one person in life who makes them feel perfect.So did I.Does gender matter was the question I asked myself? Dint get an answer.I figured for some it does but since I am never included in the SOME I got my answer.The answer was No.Gender does not matter.For me this one person means everything.By everything I dont mean I Love this person.There are some relationships which go beyond Love.And this is one of them.

Why does everything have to be named?Cant some stranger make you feel perfect?Everyone remains a stranger no matter how well or how long you know them.In my case US is not possible..WE is not possible..TOGETHER is not possible.We are made up of U and I.Still this one person makes me feel perfect.

I wake up every morning thinking about this one person.I start my day with a smile and the smile is glued till im with this person(mentally or physically).Day progresses and this one person pushes me to do the best in life..pushes me to create new records..pushes me to open myself..pushes me to know myself..pushes me to explore myself..pushes me to live every moment i have dreamt or thought of..pushes me to do things which i feel are impossible to achieve..pushes me to cross my limits..pushes me to outperform and surprise myself.

This one person has taught me the meaning of friendship , love , relationship , power , trust ,belief , attitude , forgivness , compromise , passion , postive thinking .This one person is made up of warm hugs , welcoming and soothing voice , im there for you touch and breathe taking smile.This one person feels im funny because all we do is laugh when we are together.But laugh comes with a combo meal of fights which are regular and i guess this is the reason why this one person makes me feel perfect.Fight is the most essential weapon we have.It has taught us to forgive , to forget , to cuddle , to cry , to love , to compromise , to adjust and to be strong.

Everytime i try to give a name to our relationship it hurts either one of us.Friends , best friends , soul mates , lovers.The question remains unanswered.Questions is what this one person hates.Answers is what this one person loves.I being the complete opposite love questions and want no answers.I want to name our relationship but no I wont as I dont want to hurt my SOUL MATE.

I am who I am what I am because of this one person.And I want to give all the credit to this one person.Yes its You...its always been You..and Yes I want to be this one person in someone's life.And i hope that someone's You.