Wierd Thoughts

I love wierd.I love being wierd.I love wierd people and I love wierd thoughts.The wierdo that i am i have wierd thoughts every other second.

From dating a millionaire to dating a couple..is that a step up or step down for me ?

The thought of how i will pluck my own eyebrows in Manchester is killing me so i was wondering if power of plucking is power of attorney ?

Why does every man have to be a BATMAN in the/his cave ?

Will i ever find a person to whom i can say "You own my heart" ?

Is snow a magical blanket ,does it hide whats ugly and makes everything beautiful ?

Is there a difference between having a good time and being a good time for others?

If you tilt to the right when you kiss you are said to be more emotional than the one who tilts to the left.Is that true?

Will i ever find a guy who is so hot that he has to tell me that im not a jungle gym dont jump on me?

Is it the reflection in the mirror that scares you?

Can anyone be so mean and say that the only way to look thin is to hang around with fat people?

Why has no one ever complained about a parachute not opening?

Am i tired of men acting like boys?

Will i be happy if others share even wierder thoughts than these ?Yes i think i will be.

It wasnt just another lecture

Lately iv been in a confused state or rather it would be only true if id say i have been confused always, all my life.Confusion continues and i wonder when it will end.So i took a stand and thought id work upon it.

I went to this lecture where a Guruji was talking about life,karma,dharma,soul and God.Before the Guruji entered the followers started singing for him.To my surprise i just started crying without any reason.No reason at all.I dint know why the song made me cry.When Guruji entered and started talking i felt he was just talking to me.Once again to my surprise i couldnt control my tears.For the first time i felt and went through something iv never believed in.After the lecture i was normal again in a flash of a second.Wanted to rush back to the crazy madening fast life of Mumbai which is full of loud music,booze,flashy clothes,fake people,random conversions,bitching and friends.I felt some power was pulling me and calling me back into the bad world where i feel i totally belong.But this time it was different.Something else was pulling me back as well.Dont know what it was but for a fraction of a second i felt and i heard voices in my head saying stop doing the wrong things,stop loving what you dont have to,stop running behind things which give u temporary satisfaction.I tried to listen to it but the pull of the bad world was way more powerful.And once again i was left all confused.

Eventhough i was confused its easy to guess that i obviously choose the bad world.Once again like last two weekends i went partying and laughed my guts out while the mojito's did the magic.I started feeling that the mojito level in my body was rising each day.But i dint care much to stop enjoying.Again the weekend.Friday night no plans is just not an option.I got uneasy at home.But as always at 11 i started getting calls.Calls from various people who guranteed loud music,mojito's and heart to heart conversation.But this time i decided to go out with a friend who iv recently met.I have never partied with just a friend.I believe party means too many people.But this time i broke my rule as i love doing that.So there i go to Aurus with my friend.My friend happens to be a mojito fan as well.So we sip on the best mojito in town and start talking.I had never imagined that partying could be so much fun with just one friend.Had a blast and then we called it a night.Next day as usual started with a hangover and then a house party at a friends place.Booze,loud music once again.Got up next morning just to realise that what that guruji said was totally right.This is fucking temporary happiness,temporary satistfaction.There i was...More confused then ever.

There i was uneasy ,irritated,angry,frustated and CONFUSED.Once again im dreading the weekend.I somehow from within wish the good power pulls me harder this time.I guess the addicted fool that i am il still party this weekend but gradually il be over this temporary satisfaction.I have started believing in THE LAW OF DIMINISHING UTILITY.

Im amazed by what one lecture has done to me.It hasnt stopped me from partying but its made me aware of what i am doing is just a phase.I will get over it.I have to find something else which makes me happy forever.I have to find something that doesnt upset me the next day or next morning.I have to find peace with myself.I have to get over the fact that i attach myself to every and anyone.I have to get myself attached to him the guruji who asks for nuthing but believing and knowing yourself.

I know i am not going to change over night .May be ill take a month or a year.But somehow today i feel my gut says i will gradually change and be the person i want to be.For the first time i am not confused because i know he will take me the right way.Yes it wasnt just a lecture.At first i thought it was but i guess he wanted me to realise this myself.And im glad i went for it.

Mondat at 11

Since last few monday's im all geared up and glued to VH1.The clocks strikes 11 and im all charged up to see Paris Hiltons show called My New BFF(Best friend forever).Paris has choosen 14 girls and 2 gay guys as the contestants and out of them she will choose 1 BFF.

Paris shocked everyone in the first episode by her task.She made the contestants sit on the worst roller-coaster rides but expected them to pose all the time because she believes 'If your Paris's friend you are photographed all the time',thus you have to look good no matter where you are ,what your doing ,what time it is ,what mood you are in.She also said that 'I want my BFF to pose while they are sleeping as well'.There was a clear winner to my surprise.Then she choose 4 of the contestants and took them to the MTV Japan awards on her private jet.As soon as they landed she gave each contestant $500 to shop and expected them to look stunning during the awards.To the contestants surprise she got all 4 contestants back stage and when she had to enter and announce the last award , she pulled Britany(one of her best dressed contestant) and took her on the stage and told her to announce the winner.Then she took the 4 contestants to the best Sushi place in Japan.Britany almost cried her lungs out when she saw live insects and animals cooked infront of her.Paris took her out and said 'I like that you have feelings , i love animals but they are tasty as well....haha'.The episode ended by Paris saying TTYN(talk to you never) to 2 of the contestants.At the end of every episode she chooses a winner who becomes her PET.

Next episode Paris asked her contestants to make a one minute comercial and sell all the products Paris had launched.It included Fake hair,shoes,parfumes,bags,wallets,bras,cream etc. Contestants embarassed themselves to the max in this episode and were insulted.Natasha(one of the contestants) slammed a chair and walked away.Natasha is this girl who has the sexiest attitude i have seen so far.She is different ,doesnt care about who thinks what and just does what her heart says.Korrie and Britany(the contestants) were the winners in the episode.The next game was that all the girls had to meet PEREZ HILTON(he is paris's male version ,he dresses only in pink ,wears a hairband and tight pink pant).All the girls had to rate eachother on how real or fake they feel the other contestants are.Korrie got rated the fakest.And she was taken up for the elimination but Paris dint eliminate her because paris said everyone ganged up on korrie and this is exactly what happens to her(Paris) when she is out.No one likes her because she is the best.So she had sympathy for Korrie.So in this episode she tested who is fake or real,who can take pressure ,who can fight, who can sell her product.She made them do a commercial because she thinks she is no more JUST a party person who socialises and networks but she is a BUSINESS-WOMEN as well.

In the next episode Paris got one of her friend who was a famous horny rockband groupy.He was at his cheesiest best.Very touchy,super naughty and yuckily horny throwing himself on the girls.The girls had to play seven minutes in heaven with him.It means the girls have to lock themselves in a room with him and be with him for seven minutes.Paris wanted to judge the girls on their character.Some girls acted like slutty, smart,boring,horny bitches and some girls acted like lusty , busty ,wicked corny wanna be loosers.Paris did this beacuase her best friend should be someone who knows when to stay in her pants and when to remove them.

In the next episode Paris took the girls to Vegas and they stayed in THE VENETIAN.The girls partied Paris style.They .It was one of the best party the girls could have gone to.Then they went party hopping till 4 am.At 6 am the show girls woke the contestants and took them for the practice as the contestants had to perform on stage in front of the audience.The contestants were dead tired and drunk still kept a smiling face and performed.Paris said she did this because many times she has to make an appearance in parties early morning so her BFF should get use to it.Then the next day she sent all the contestants to a spa.Every contestantwas relaxing when Paris sent them a chit with false rumours.She wanted to see how the contestants will react to it.Some cried,some got angry,some went quite and one contestant laughed it off and got back to normal.Paris did this because she hears 1000 rumours about herself everyday,she has to laugh it out or else it will affect her beauty and skin.Thus she wanted to test the contestants on how they take the rumour.She wanted to know who is thick skinned and who is a cry baby.

In the next episode she told the girls to invite random guys for a pool party at her mansion.The winner will be the contestant who gets most number of guys.Everyone got a guy expect 2 girls.This task was not the elimination task.Then she made all the contestants sit in a room and she came and sat with them.Then she switched on the TV and told the contestants that all the truth will be revealed today.She had managed to find every contestants ex-boyfriend and worst enemy.They came on the tv and let out every wicked secret of the contestant.Contestants were ripped apart,every secret out.It was by far the most shocking episode as all the secrets were out and every contestant was a open book now and fresh chapters had to be written.

I love this show because it shows how its so tough be a celebrity.We always see the good side but the effort put in by the celebs is commendable.Busy schedule , sleepless nights , scandals , sex , gossip , fights , emotions , drama.This show has everything.This show teaches us that there is a difference between having a good time and being a good time.

An Interesting Weekend

Was waiting for saturday evening as saturday for Miss P denotes partying, freaking out,fun,friends,booze,chilling,lazying around,good food and gallons of gossip.This saturday turned out to be a little different.Partying,boozing and loud music was replaced by sitting on the bean bag and watching Gossip Girls and My new BFF.Posh dressing and heels were replaced by shorts,casual tops and flip flops.Straightened and blow-dried hair were replaced by pony tails and messy look.Sit down dinners were replaced by junk food near Mithibai College.

Miss P started wondering whats happening to Miss P's friends and Miss P.Are they getting old?Have they forgotten the meaning of enjoying ?Are they in that stage where they are so tired that all they want to do is laze around and not do anything?As always Miss P's mind started thinking and it dint stop.But Miss D came to Miss P's rescue.Miss D and Miss P are like north and south pole.But they are best friends.They argue,fight,yell but help eachother out.They just know eachother so well that they know when to let things go and pamper eachother.So Miss D advised Miss P to stop thinking and just enjoy what they are doing.Miss P thought that may be its one of those weeks where one has to just let go and not think too much.So Miss P decided to go with the flow.Saturday night ended with a drive to Carter road and indulging in Mad Over Donuts.Food is what Miss P and Miss D live for.At MOD Miss P had an eye to eye with this cute looking guy who was accompanied by his younger brother.Miss P and Mr stranger exchanged a smile and left the rest to Mr God.Saturday night finally ended with a stay over at Miss P's house.

Then came Sunday.It was Mr Vi's bday.Miss P was invited.Miss P went there dressed up like it was a saturday night.Wasnt in vain.Miss P enjoyed to the max as she met so many new people.All very diffrent in looks,thoughts,views,sizes.Miss P loved it.Miss P started talking to Mr Z who was really interesting.Mr Z was very funny and frank.He was a graduate from Baruch NYC.Miss P and Mr Z talked for hours on the randomest topics.Mr Z said Miss P was the coolest Kutchi he had met.Miss P was flattered.Miss P laughed like there was no tomorrow.Miss P had the funniest and the most spontaneous talk of her life with Mr Z.Mr Z claimed during the party that he doesnt know the meaning of friendship and he never becomes friends with a women/girl.To Miss P's surprise Mr Z mentioned Miss P as a friend in his blog.Miss P was flattered again.She Was enjoying her drinks and talking away to glory when she realised that she was cooler,funnier and awesomer(Miss P is allowed to invent a word) when she was positive.She enjoyed what she did if she took that thing in a positive way.Obviously Black Label played a huge role as well.Miss P was thanked by many people who loved Miss P's moms cake.Finally sunday came to an end and Miss P promised Mr Vi for dinner at Mangi Fera.Mr Vi for a perfect host and had awesome friends especially Mr Z.

Miss P wants to thank Miss D who made Miss P realise that all saturdays dont have to be party saturdays.May be something good is in store for sunday.Miss P also realised partying is not the only thing in life.Spending time together no matter what you are doing matters.But that doesnt mean Miss P & D dont enjoy the coming saturdays and sundays.So Miss P is looking forward for an even better weekend this time.Hope Miss P is not putting too much pressure on Miss D.

Inspired by IF ONLY

Woke up with a thought which dint allow me to sleep again.Wondered all night what if i know i just have few days in hand.Have i done everything i wanted to do in life?Have i lived every moment i have dreamt of?The answer was NO in bold letters.The word NO echoed in my head for the whole day...week...month.Decision had to be made.I decided to live each day like it was my last.I decided to live like there is no tomorrow.

Made a check list of all the things i want to do.The list was never ending.Thought was the list of what i have done smaller than what i want to do?To my surprise the answer was Yes.Still decided to make a list of what all i want to do.

On a personal note I want to hold my guy's hand and never leave it.I want to learn the art of attachment and detachment.I want to experience the feeling of being IN love.I want to experience the feeling of BEING loved.I want my grandfather back.I want to know how to get out of the denial mode.

On an adventuruos note I want to paint my walls and hands and spoil my clothes with the 5 yr olds.I want to sit in the garden and enjoy wine eventhough im not a fan of wine.I wan to play football in the rain.I want to own a house in Las Vegas and party for 8 days straight.I want to sing at a rock concert and play the electric guitar.I want to own a house in Beverley Hills.I want to bury myself in the sand for a day.I want to live underwater like a mermaid.I want to spend every month in a new city.I want to have so much power that my words are commands.I want to live like Paris Hilton for a day where i can patent the words i say "Thats Hot".I want to click snaps of every moment i live.I want to gobble down cheese and pasteries and still feel light.I want to walk the ramp with Jude Law.I want to do scuba diving and swim with the fishes.I want to own a jet ski and ride it.I want to sleep on the bed of gummy bears and lollipops.I want to have a personal masseurs.i want to know the secret formula of Coca Cola.I want to have a chocolate massage by George Clooney .I want to know who invented the colour Pink.

The day is not far when il have ticks on all the things i want to do in life.

Question I dont have an answer to.......

Miss P feels that we now seek our warmth in those with whom we share not ancestors but interests.There are times she does not want be there but she has to.She hears people telling her "feel with us rather than being with us".She feels sometimes she has to do somethings which she does not like but she has to do it to make her loved one's feel loved.Have relatives become the new strangers?

Miss P went to this boutique and the fellow who was showing her around was a winner of genetic lottery.She felt like shop lifting so atleast that guy would feel her up.Are such thoughts and feelings acceptable?

Everyone likes breaks.Lunch breaks , power nap breaks , tea breaks , summer breaks and winter breaks.Then Miss P wonders why dont people like BREAK ups?

When Miss P steps outside her house , starts the car , catches a rickshwaw or meets someone on the raod people ask her the same question which is "Where are you going?".But Miss P does not know Why is everyone in search of a Destination?Why we just be spontaneous and go where the road takes us?Why does one plan everything in life?

Every ocassion nowadays is celebrated by giving a gift.How does one define gift?A 2 bucks chocolate given by a begar to his child after starving for one whole day or A Bentley given by a billionaire to his spoilt son because he got 45% in his exam.So is gift defined by how much money one is spending on it or the feeling or emotion with which the gift is given?Miss P asks Would you call a stapler packed in brown bag with dog poooop a gift?

I LOVE YOU are the most powerful words one person can tell the other.Then why doesnt everyone use the power?Isnt power something that everyone wants and craves for?Why does one say I Love You?Is it because the person loves the other person more than Himself/Herself?Then Miss P wonders why does I comes before You ? (I love YOU)

When you say I hate him/her , you still have feelings for the person because you think of the person and then you hate them but when you say your indifferent towards the person it means you dont acknowledge them or their presense.Miss P askes "Do you hate your enemy or are you indifferent towards him/her?Which is a sharper weapon?

Miss P is totally amazed by some of the one liners she heard recently
1)Girls with asses like mine dont talk to guys with faces like yours
2)If your Ego was listed on the menu card the price of your Ego would be unimaginable
3)I'l leave footnotes on ur epic ass
4)Why dont you crawl from from the hole you came from
Miss P wonders How does one make a one liner?Can someone find its birthplace?Are one liners an outcome of anger , irritation or retaliation?One liners usually hurt people but why do people like Miss P enjoy one liners so much?

Miss P will be glad to get some answers....

You make me feel Perfect

Everyone comes across this one person in life who makes them feel perfect.So did I.Does gender matter was the question I asked myself? Dint get an answer.I figured for some it does but since I am never included in the SOME I got my answer.The answer was No.Gender does not matter.For me this one person means everything.By everything I dont mean I Love this person.There are some relationships which go beyond Love.And this is one of them.

Why does everything have to be named?Cant some stranger make you feel perfect?Everyone remains a stranger no matter how well or how long you know them.In my case US is not possible..WE is not possible..TOGETHER is not possible.We are made up of U and I.Still this one person makes me feel perfect.

I wake up every morning thinking about this one person.I start my day with a smile and the smile is glued till im with this person(mentally or physically).Day progresses and this one person pushes me to do the best in life..pushes me to create new records..pushes me to open myself..pushes me to know myself..pushes me to explore myself..pushes me to live every moment i have dreamt or thought of..pushes me to do things which i feel are impossible to achieve..pushes me to cross my limits..pushes me to outperform and surprise myself.

This one person has taught me the meaning of friendship , love , relationship , power , trust ,belief , attitude , forgivness , compromise , passion , postive thinking .This one person is made up of warm hugs , welcoming and soothing voice , im there for you touch and breathe taking smile.This one person feels im funny because all we do is laugh when we are together.But laugh comes with a combo meal of fights which are regular and i guess this is the reason why this one person makes me feel perfect.Fight is the most essential weapon we have.It has taught us to forgive , to forget , to cuddle , to cry , to love , to compromise , to adjust and to be strong.

Everytime i try to give a name to our relationship it hurts either one of us.Friends , best friends , soul mates , lovers.The question remains unanswered.Questions is what this one person hates.Answers is what this one person loves.I being the complete opposite love questions and want no answers.I want to name our relationship but no I wont as I dont want to hurt my SOUL MATE.

I am who I am what I am because of this one person.And I want to give all the credit to this one person.Yes its You...its always been You..and Yes I want to be this one person in someone's life.And i hope that someone's You.